...LIFE GOES ON...

'11th december 2010

2010-12-11T07:34:00.000-08:00

Okay,I know that my blog is really dead and I'm sorry about it.

It is due to the break down of my computer and laptop charger. Right now,I'm using my 2nd sis computer. wow! at least,I can update something here.

Life have been filled with dramas. People keep finding trouble and I'm getting pissed off so easily nowadays. I'm not sure why but I guess too many problems for me to handle with.

I know this is life and nothing comes easily,not even happiness.

I've been acting very weird towards some people and I just don't know why. People changed,so do I.

I'm hating guys. I mean most but not for some.

Sorry,but I think my heart isn't ready for love. When people talk about love,I'll tend to avoid it and act like love doesnt exist. Thanks to the jerks in my past aite.

As for now,I'll just put all that aside and enjoy my life with my friends.

I don't need anymore heartbreaks.

I'm loving my life even when I'm going through all those shits.

I just got to accept it and go with the flow.

Whatever it is,I'm never going to give up.

'N'level results will be out 6 more day s and hopefully I'll get through this. : )

Yesterday,was a great day day as I had my malay class bbq but we invited some outsiders. So yeah,there was drama going on when I reached home and this jerk started to post something about the BBQ. Fuck off kay! Kau tak sentuh itu pit,kau duduk diam-diam dekat tepi pun cantik.

Okay,chow people! gtg! : )

22th November 2010

2010-11-21T08:15:00.000-08:00

LET'S PARTY! : D

Wow! Problems here and there. I was lucky that He settled everything with me. Such a relieved and I feel much better as compared to yesterday. So,it's the beginning of the week and I shall start it with a lot of excitement.

WTH! I was halfway updating my blog and there's this particular girl send me fb message and trying to find trouble. What's up with you? Asal kau terase siol?

I was correcting his mistakes. Whatever.. I won't entertain people like you. Such a waste of time. Okay back to my story,hmm.. today was kind bored but I managed to spent my time by sleeping almost the whole day plus doing laundries. haha!

I don't know what else to type here because I'm in a party mood and how I wish I can go clubbing. But,too bad,I don't think my family would agree with that. Nvermind,maybe when I'm 21,I'll do such things. : ) Okay peeps! Chow! I can't stand it when she wanted to argued with me but end up talking to herself. I can be a bitch if you want to. : P

Superman - Joe Brooks (w/ lyrics)

2010-11-20T23:38:00.000-08:00

Maher Zain - The Chosen One | ماهر زين - المختار

2010-11-19T21:11:00.000-08:00

20th NOVEMBER 2010

2010-11-19T20:45:00.000-08:00

So much for calling yourself my Friend.

You see,I don't mind if you're ignoring me for a valid reason. But hell yeah! You're still contacting with her?? What's up with you boy?? What has gone into your mind??

You left me aside and you're happily entertaining her.

Just STFU! Don't call yourself my bestfriend when you're just using me and ignoring me for some stupid reasons. Fuck off!

I know I should be the one texting you in the first place but well,I'm busy too??! How nice can my reasons be??! ASS!

It's up to you and It's your choice who you want to be with or what you want to do.

Seriously,there's no harm if you ignore her text and calls what?! Why?! You're still in love with her? Oh okay,Whatever it is, please mean what you say before saying stuff like,'No,I don't love her anymore.' It's pathetic and I swear that your words are lies.

You know,these days,I've been wanting to share my problems to someone but I just don't know who. i know I have a bestfriend(Fida) but at times,not everything I can share to her.

And to you boy,Where were you when I needed you the most?!

Bullshit! This is why I hate guys!

If you're sincere to be my friend or whatever shit,you don't have to ignore me just for the sake of HER!

I'm pissed off!

I guess,I've not been praying for quite sometime and I just can't find myself at ease.

Starting from today,I'm going to change. Change in my attitude.

Btw,to that someone,I know you have a boyfriend but you know,I wanted to talk to you about my problems but it seems that you're ignoring me too.

You're never sincere to be my friend and I'm sorry. I've deleted your number and I guess that's the best for me to stop with my nonsense with you.

See,FRIENDS? what's that supposed to mean?

They only come to you when they need someone to talk to and they'll leave you once they found happiness. I don't care! I'm going to ignore everything and just be myself.

I won't let your words bring me down and I'll stay strong like I've always did.

I'll try to be at the peak of the mountain where everything seems fine and you won't be able to know what's happening down there.

At times,I feel like migrating. I want to be far away from everyone except for my beloved people. If all these happened for a reason,then I'll accept it and walk away like as if it was never a problem to me.

You know how painful it is,for me to know that you're ignoring me and you know how much I wanted you to be by my side so badly.

But well,I didn't cry and this just means that it's too painful that I can't let this tears out.

Whatever! This is my world and I know Allah is there for me.

I don't need you people to treat me like shit. Thanks! Chow!

19th November 2010

2010-11-19T01:08:00.000-08:00

PROM NIGHT BABY!!!

So,yesterday was AWESOME! <3.>

More pictures on facebook has been uploaded.

Well,all thanks to my 2nd sis for transforming me into a lady. : ).

haha! But I still love the nerdy side of me. That's just me,NERDY! : D.

Who cares if you people want to criticise me?? It's not like you people are PERFECT or something... Oh,PLEASE... Dream on...

Btw,I'm going to start bitching about you and him.

Eh,listen here ah. I'm not accusing him okay. I'm stating the facts! And to you bitch,you better back off because you have got nothing to do in this matter even if you're his GF! I didn't even blame you,so yeah,fuck off!

Okay back to yesterday,me and my dearest bestfriend were late for Prom and I guess we were the last to reach there. : P. Anyway,thanks for the compliments people. I mean my fb friends. : D.

Oh,not to forget,I've managed not to look at his profile for three fcuking days! woohoo! Life's great people! Okay! Chow! : D

17th November 2010

2010-11-16T23:21:00.001-08:00

I'll not be the girl who will easily fall in love with Bastards!

I'll not let guys take advantage of me!

I'll not be nice to them if their hobby is hurting people's heart!

I'll not entertain any bullshit!

I'll not view his BORING profile!

I'll hate guys who come and go easily!

If you want a good-looking girl,ladylight,sexy and whatever shit,You can fcuk off from my life because I'm just me! I'm sporty,not pretty at all but at least I don't play around with people's heart.

I'll make sure that the next guy who enters my life be the last one.I'll make sure that you're really sincere towards me and you respect me. If not,I'll kick your ass ! Got that!

Like I told you people,I've changed!

And to my FUTURE LOVE:

'Please do not hurt me like those bastards did to me.I had enough of heartbreaks and I swear I'll love you with all my heart. I'll treasure you and I'll not take you for granted.'

I LOVE You MY FUTURE LOVER!! : )

Miley Cyrus Medley - Christina Grimmie (By Kurt Schneider)

2010-11-16T23:21:00.000-08:00

17th November 2010

2010-11-16T22:45:00.000-08:00

It's because I hate guys! I swear!

Lately,I've changed and I realised that. You know the feeling when you got dumped for a few times and all you do is to avoid yourself from falling in love again. Maybe,I'm wrong to be acting that way but I have my own reasons why I'm in love with someone that I'm not supposed to.

Only my bestfriend knows what I'm going through. It's because her,I've come to a decision not to fall in love with somebody. But too bad,it just happened. Hopefully,this feelings will come and go. I'm sorry Fida. At times,I asked myself why guys keep hurting girls??? I just don't get it.

I'll not fall in love with any guys anymore. No guys in my life except for Hairul and some of my boyfriends. I hate getting dumped and the part which I hate the most is getting over them.

I've been holding back the pain,anger and whatever bullshit! I don't need a guy who have to kiss me on my forehead! I don't need a guy who will accompany me everywhere I go! I just need my FAMILY and Friends... I hate guys! I hate guys! I hate guys! They're just a pain in the ASS!

Fuck them! SEE! Since,things have been too complicated,I'll just ignore whatever love shit!

I want to be strong and I know I am. I want him to know that I CAN LIVE WITHOUT HIM!

You said you didn't left me???!!! Fuck off!! *pointing middle finger!

You left me,you dumped me and now,you're not admitting that it was your fault!!!

Hell yeah! If that's the way you treated me,I'll just cursed and swear that your relationship will be a disaster! Happy??!! I'm not trying to be rude but that's what you'll get for treating me like shit! I'm not jealous or whatever! I SWEAR! If you think that you're satisfied to have her by your side,listen here! KARMA'S A BITCH! GOT THAT! _l_! For goodness sake,I'm just asking you to do one simple thing and you're making a big fuss out of it... So much for calling yourself a friend of him... Whatever! One more nonsense I get from your friends or you,watch out!

I'll make a report! Fucker! Good enough that I'm not hating you and now I'm hating you like 1000000000000 times more than ever! If I know all kinds of harsh vocabulary,I'm going to use it! You said that you're busy this and that??!! Eh,Businessman is it?!! Idiot!! Bye!

I'm off! I wished you will read this or whoever that is closed to him.

You're my biggest mistake! DUMBASS!

Nothing's IMPOSSIBLE!

I'll get myself over you and I'm not going to waste my time on somebody like you!

CHOW! F.Y.I,I've changed! I'm not the SYAZA you used to know.

13th November 2010

2010-11-13T01:16:00.000-08:00

My Best Friend Is AWESOME! <3

Hey People! : P..

Yesterday was a blast. I had a lot of fun with that guy in the those pictures.

He's Hairul and he treated me almost everything and I should consider myself a very lucky girl because he was the first guy who treated me that much.

Basically,if I were to talk and describe every single thing in Universal Studio,it will be pathethic because I can even write it as my composition. Everyone should go there because there's a lot to explore and play.

Though,I missed a show and I regret for missing it. My friend told me that it was a great show. Nevermind,there's always next time. : D. For the first time,I didn't have to fake a smile because Hairul has naturally turn my smile into a real one. For once,he made me happy. And for once,he is the guy who really treasure our friendship. I'm trying not to make a big deal out of it but I'm trying to let you know that I'm Happy.. : ) Perhaps,you left and dumped me for GOOD... : )

If you think that I'm falling in love with him,then that's good for you. I really wished you will read my blog oftenly. The truth is I'm unlike you who played around with a girl feelings. Well,I'm satisfied now. Not in a mood to talk about you. So yeah.. I spent the whole day with Hairul and I just can't describe the feeling of having a best friend who lives in Ang Mo Kio sending me back home all the way to Jurong West. I was really touched by everything that he had done for me. But,I hope he will not expect anything in return ... : )

9th november 2010

2010-11-09T07:17:00.000-08:00

A TRUE Friend stays with you even when you're falling apart.

Lately,I've been thinking about random stuffs which will only make me go crazy.

I don't know why but I kept asking myself with questions like 'What if...?? Why? When??.. You see,all these incomplete questions are even running through my mind right now. Maybe,I'm still wondering why he left me and why my dreams became a real one. Gosh! Seriously,I'm going to be insane soon. Apart from all those stupid questions,I've been trying to hold everything to myself and I'm trying my best to be patient. Like seriously,I've changed. I don't know in what way but probably it was because of him that I've changed or I was wrong to blame him but too bad,all these happened because I don't want people to take advantage of me and end up ruining my life. Well,people changed so why not me right? I'm changing for the better and also my future. I don't want to get myself into relationship which will only hurt me deeply. I want happiness. Who doesn't want it anyway?? Everybody wants happiness but the only key to it,is to have patience. This means that,you really have to go through a tough time to be happy. : )

Basically,life is hard and all you can do is to endure with the pain and tell yourself that no matter what happens,'Life goes on.' Easier said than done huh? Yes,it's true that when you're falling apart,all you think of is giving up on everything but at one point of time,you'll come to realise that things happened for a reason and in fact all you want is for 'miracle' to happen. And it's obvious that I'm talking about love and stuff. It's quite irony when someone whom you really want to hate becomes the person that you loved the most. Well,all these is really common. Perhaps,I'm referring to the girls and IDK about the boys. It's hard to find someone who can really treasure you. pfft.. =.=.

Single life is AWESOME but you'll feel lonely at times. Though,at the very least,you won't get into stupid arguments. : )

Being in a relationship is the toughest thing as you really need to have commitments and you have to endure with everything. Plus,you'll even quarrel over small things. But the pros of it ,is that you are able to share your love and you'll be like most happiest person on earth when he/she is by your side. : )

So,the moral of the story is to just live a single life until you really know what love is all about. : )

5th november 2010

2010-11-04T10:09:00.000-07:00

Katharine McPhee - Had It All

5th November 2010

2010-11-04T09:54:00.000-07:00

5th November 2010

2010-11-04T09:10:00.000-07:00

I MISS EVERYTHING & EVERYONE!

From school life to social life and love life! Well,I miss wearing that uniform of mine and I miss my GIRLFRIENDS especially! Not forgetting,I miss the scoldings and naggings of my teachers.... Gosh! I've to wait until 17th December just to meet my teachers and to also take my results. Anyway,I can't wait for 12th and 14th november to come,as I'll be going to Universal Studio and Marina Barrage to fly kite... : ) I'm pretty much excited about everything.. That's weird..

Love life? Yeah,at times I miss saying 'I love you' randomly to a guy,I miss having a guy who will lend me his shoulders when I'm down and a guy who will hug me tightly whenever he's obsessed with me. I miss those times when a guy will wipe my tears and kiss me on the forehead. I miss those moments when I walked away from him feeling very angry and what he did was running after me.

It doesn't matter about who is the guy that I'm referring to but what matters the most is that my feelings for him WILL NOT CHANGE even for a second. Trust me,he's the best that I ever had and only me who knows what is written deep in my heart. If one day,you found me with my new love,I'm sorry because my future love will be the person who has managed to capture my heart and replace you. I'll move on but you don't have to worry because I'll remember you until my last breath. : )

I miss you Boy! I really do! If you happened to read this,then I would like to say that no matter where you are,who you are with or whatever you're doing,I'll always remember that you have showered me with your love and care...

I don't know if all these while,'HAVE YOU EVER MISS ME?' I guess you don't... It's okay. As long as I can see that your smile is shining brightly,I'll be grateful for that because it basically means that you're happy being with someone else and I'm proud to know that.. : )

Last but not least,I MISS MY REAL SMILE because I've been faking it... : )

*I'm not looking for a man but I'm searching for the LOVE from a man...

25th october 2010

2010-10-24T21:17:00.000-07:00

25th October 2010

2010-10-24T20:45:00.000-07:00

FOREVER??? Well,nothing last forever...

I really feel like blogging today,so yeah...

During the weekends,I slept over at my 2nd sister house... It was fun! : )

We watched some movies that my sister rented and we really talked a lot of craps...

I've been wanting to blog about my feelings but I don't think it's appropriate to do so and it's because that I've promised myself to be happy-go-lucky.... : )

So yeah... Anyway,I find that my holidays is occupied by housework and this was what I want... Becoming a part time maid.... Nevermind, at least I'm keeping myself busy... So,tomorrow,I'll be meeting two of my childhood friends and on Wednesday,I'll be heading to Queensway with my friends...

Not to forget,today will be the first 'O' levels paper and so ALL THE BEST TO PEOPLE WHO ARE TAKING IT... : )

Okay,in less than a month it will be my prom night.. I'm soo excited for it... haha!

Anyway,'N' level results will be on 17th December,I'm getting nervous people...

Let's just pray and hope that I'm able to make it to sec 5... : )

Life goes on even though at times,you feel like your past was the best thing but getting over your past and moving on is part of learning and letting you know that things will not always go as what you're expecting it to be... Therefore,I'm going to get over everything in my past slowly... I know I can make it because patience is what you need... : )

25th October 2010

2010-10-24T20:41:00.000-07:00

2010-10-22T04:29:00.000-07:00

If he is stupid enough to walk away,be smart enough to let him go... : )

Yeah,it's obvious that my blog is dead... I don't know.. I'll just update my blog when I feel like it... So yeah.. Okay,life has been great...

It seems that I'm handling everything on my own...

Nowadays,I've been doing a lot of housework and I go out quite often with my friends or I either sleepover at my 2nd sis house...

Since I didn't get any job,my 1st sis decided to offer me a job.. haha!! Part time maid.. Okay whatever! At least,I earned $100 per month...

Yesterday,was a tiring day for me...

I went to Bugis with my 2nd sis,my niece and nephew... I went there just to look for my prom dress,shoes and accessories... I think my shoe size is abnormal... Wherever I go,there's always no size for me or its either no more stock.. my height is 157cm and my shoe size is 9 for a single digit and 41 to 42 for a double digit... Annoying man.. Nevermind,I should be thankful that I'm still born with a pair of legs.. : )

Lately,I've been doing my own thing... I even borrowed a library book. haha!!

I'm lazy to think of whatever love shit.. It doesn't make sense at all because I'm still a teenager who should be having fun instead of getting hurt and so on...

Oh yes! I'm looking forward to prom night which is on 18th November...

And not to forget,I'll be going Universal Studio with Mr Hairul the Irritating shit on the 12th November! hahahaha!! He's annoying but I treasure our friendship a lot

.. : ) Well,I wasn't expecting that he's going to treat me to Universal Studio... I was kind of shocked...

Okay,I'm excited for it!! Let's end it here... I've nothing much to say.. : )

*I hope you really accept my apology ... I don't want you to be a jerk again okay...

If you're happy with her,then it's your problem.. I'm here to settle my wrong doings towards you.. After this,you will know nothing about me okay... Fuck off!

Ne-Yo - One In A Million

2010-10-13T03:47:00.000-07:00

13th october 2010

2010-10-13T03:28:00.000-07:00

Let's get WILD and PARTY!!

Well,life's been quite tough... There's nothing that we can do to avoid all the problems that we're facing.. We can only handle it and solve it.

Afterall,that's life... It's about testing your patience.

But as you know,at times we can't tolerate with everything that is happening around us. There are moments when you feel like saying FML..

What's the use of saying that when you're not even doing something but instead trying to make your life miserable.

Moving on in life is easy but forgetting something that has happened in your past is never easy at all. I know that I'm strong enough to handle with this and ALLAH is always there for me... There are times when all you could feel is just the pain that you can't describe but ALLAH knows better what our life will be like...

I know that the more challenges you face,the stronger you'll become and the more patience you have,it will lead to the happiness that we want, all this while...

Things happened for a reason but you'll never know the reason why it happened...

In fact,all you know is that,there are better things ahead for you and a better person that will treasure you...

Well,as for now,i've nothing much to say but to pray that things will work out between me and him.. I don't want to lose my another bestfriend again...

I want to treasure our friendship as it has been 2yrs plus we've known each other... : )

Right now,I want to occupy my time by working,party with friends and enjoy every moment of my life.. : D

Natasha Bedingfield .. Again (Lyrics)

2010-10-08T07:50:00.000-07:00

8TH OCTOBER 2010

2010-10-08T07:39:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED NIECE!

AUNTY,LOVE YOU SOO MUCH AND NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS,AUNTY WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU...

BE A GOOD GIRL AND STUDY HARD & SMART...

8TH oCTOBER 2010

2010-10-08T06:54:00.000-07:00

NEW YORK BABY!! I WANT TO GO THERE ONE DAY!! : )

I'VE ALREADY DID MY BEST!! : D

It's such a relieved that 'N' level is over and overall,it was manageable except for some.. Well,i'll just pray and hope that ALLAH will help me get through this and get promoted to Sec 5... : )

Wow! For the past 3 weeks,I didn't text anyone. It was due to my low prepaid and I purposely did it because I wanted to focus on my 'N' level..

Okay,as for today,I went to Naf house to have a movie marathon with her and Syirahfaive.... Well,today was kind of happy plus emo shit...

Yup,I laughed a lot but something is bothering me and I'm trying to put that feelings aside..

'N' level is over and I should enjoy myself for a moment instead of thinking about things that aren't worth my time at all... Though,at times,I tend to be over-reacting and I realised that... My behaviour could make people around me dislike me or in fact hate me... I'll change for the better and at least I've realised....

One hour ago,I viewed this particular person blog and I found out that she got to know every single thing about me and him... It's obvious because she put the song that I've dedicated to him as her blog song... Anyway,its the past... So,don't bother to brag about it yeah... I'm moving on so is him.. Such a jerk... Have you no sense of feeling guilty towards me... After what you've did to me?! You hurt,you dumped,you lied and the most painful part is that You ignored me like some useless person when I was trying to make things back to normal...

But what were you doing instead?! Enjoying your time with her,smiling,saying those sweet words and stupid promises to her... asshole!

Maybe,I find that life is unfair but the fact is that LIFE IS FAIR...

When his gone,what did I do? What did I get?

1)I get to focus on my studies .

2)I get to feel the love from my family.

3)I get to smile everyday even though it hurts me in the inside all the time.

4)I 'm stronger than before

5)I'm living a happy life even though you're happier.

6)I've stopped punching the wall when I'm down because now, when I'm down I'll ignore everything.

7)I'm a person with a lot of expectations when it comes to guys because I'm tired of getting hurt all over again. This is all because of YOU. thanks.

Whatever I'm going through won't last forever because for me to have the happiness back,I've to be patient even if it takes years...

As for now,I want to be a firm girl when it comes to making decision.

I won't be weak like before...

I want to have a great life in the future... : )

Well,to make it short... Let me learnt the meaning of LOVE...

PS: I hope I can make it to SEC 5! : )

Bruno Mars - Long Distance [Lyrics]

2010-09-25T08:52:00.000-07:00

25th September 2010

2010-09-25T08:11:00.000-07:00

Somehow,I've never intend to hurt you or ruin your life... : (

To have a best guy friend like you in my life was the best! Even though,I've never shown it but deep in my heart,I miss you...

I miss you Mr.N...

Out of all the places and people,it was you that I saw just now...

I've never thought you'll act that way..

Am I too harsh to you until you're giving me that cruel attitude for not looking back at me when I was standing there hoping that our eyes will meet...

But I was wrong,I know you're hurt badly and yes,I've to admit I felt like crying at that moment but I'm being strong by holding those tears.

My friends were like telling,'eh,NI***! NI***! But you know what,my mood suddenly changed and I was speechless. There's nothing I could do. I wanted to talk to you but there's no used. You mean it and I'll mark your words.

But someday,I know that we'll talk like how we used to...

I miss talking to you,I miss looking at you running,I miss studying and eating with you... But the ONE thing that I really miss was YOU...

You know,at that moment when I saw you,there's butterflies in my stomach and I couldn't find any words to describe the situation. Maybe what I was hoping for came true but ironically it didn't. I don't know what you're feeling but trust me,I've been thinking about you. Never once,I hated you because I still treat you like a friend of mine even though you're gone... I wished that someday,you'll give me another chance to prove that I really treasure our friendship and I want it to last.

: ) : (

Mr.N... Please reflect on it ...

Everyone should be given chances but why not me?

I need someone whom I can share the stories of my life and to make it simple,I need you because I treasure you like how I treasure my life. You see,you're precious to me and yes! I mean it.

Hey,look.. Wherever you are and whatever you're doing I'll pray the best for you and I hope your future will be bright.

Maybe,true enough.. You deserve a better friend instead of me.

You may see it that way but you won't know my true feelings...

Perhaps,I'm trying to be ego because I've learnt to be that way but not because I'm selfish but it's because I DO NO WANT guys to take advantage of me especially after the incident between me and this particular guy.

Therefore,I would like to apologise to you like infinity of times...

See you around! Do well for your 'O's.. I'll pray hard for you to pass with flying colours. : )

Selena Gomez & The Scene - A Year Without Rain

2010-09-20T01:32:00.000-07:00

20th September 2010

2010-09-20T00:53:00.000-07:00

I don't need him.

I don't give a fcuking care.

He's yours.

I've got nothing to do with

your relationship.

Now,it's my life.

So much for saying 'I Love You' when you don't mean it. I've got nothing to do with your life neither his. I hate him for a reason. And you won't know why. It's your problem if you both can't stop arguing alright. Why are you so afraid of losing him when the fact is that he LOVES you soo freaking much. Trust me,he will love you with all his heart and he won't lie a single thing to you if he do care about you.

And i'm sure that you're still in love with your Ex.

To make it short,you're confused.

So what if I still love hiM?? But too bad,my feelings has faded and it just come and go. You see,i'm stronger than you as I'm able to let him go even though it kills me like hell. You know,to me,there's a reason why it happens.. Cuz I'm a happier person without him in my life and I'm able to focus on my studies better.

You know,at this age,all these is 'puppy love'... It's not like you can marry your beloved boyfriend now what?! So,don't make it like a big deal.

Someday,you'll regret to make him your everything because he's a secretive person and you may not know what lies in between his mind and heart.

He did said 'I LOVE YOU' to me but I don't usually say that to him because I'm unsure if he's the one. I don't give a fcuking care. If you think he's the one than I'm sure he'll be yours like forever BUT nothing last forever. I mean, you see, 5yrs down the road,I don't think both of you will still be together. If the opposite happens,then,I'm wrong ... God decides everything and not you...

You can't control your life but you can make an effort to improve on it.

I'm trying to take it easy but come on! What more do you want from me? You have him and what else do you want? Go be happy. If he really loves you,you guys won't have to keep arguing as it will only hurt you more.

F.Y.I,when I was closed with him,I didn't argue a lot like yguys. Only after a year,we argued a lot alright.

One more thing,all these is fated! I'm just too busy with my life until I didn't notice that it has been months after that incident.

Goodbye! Stay out of my life. Thanks.

15th September 2010

2010-09-14T11:36:00.000-07:00

15th september 2010

2010-09-14T10:46:00.000-07:00

Personality. Attitude. Appearance.

Well,life isn't about you looking good or being wealthy. At times,it's true people judged you with all these and by all it means but on the same time,if your attitude sucks,you can't go far because people will eventually hate you. There's some point of time,we have to change for the better,not because we want or have to please people but it's for our own good and also our future.

It's hard to do it but the only thing that matter is whether you're willing to do it sincerely or force yourself just to prove to everyone that you've really changed but the fact is that you're not. You see,since I'm born into this world,all I'm interested in, is sports and there hasn't been a time that I find myself acting or behaving like a real woman. I love being myself but as time passed by,I've realised that I can't keep on behaving this way. Maybe and just maybe one day,I'm prepared to look like someone I'm not. Yes,I have to admit that my attitude sucks and without fail,my sister has been the one advising me to change for the better.

One more thing,I'm jealous to see girls putting on make-ups and I envy them but I've always asked myself: What for you put on those make-ups when you're still a teenager,looking good,fresh and healthy.

My friends may see me like some tomboyish girl but you know what? I'm trying my best to be like those girls out there. Perhaps,it won't work out because at the end of the day,I still chose to be ME! I'm lucky and proud to see myself having the personality of a happy-go-lucky girl. In fact,most of my friends said that. haha! I love my life! : D

No matter how harsh your words can be,I'm still holding onto this feeling just to make myself become a stronger person. I will keep on trying my best to forget you. I will forget your smile,your voice,the way you walked,the way you talked and the way you said my name.

I will act like you've never exist in my life before,now and in the future. I will make sure that I won't keep on looking at your facebook or her blog. Whatever I'm doing right now,isn't because of you but it's because god wants me to. Wherever you are,I'm sure that you've forgotten every single thing about me. That's good for you because I know that you're happy to have her by your side everyday,every seconds,mins and in fact hours.

May both of you last long.

I've chose to be this way for as long as it takes because I prefer to be living like this. No lies,no arguments and no relationship problems. I want to remain this way for at least 2 years or more than that. I want to enjoy my life to the fullest because every second of my life is precious. I can't rewind the time but if only I'm capable of doing that,I would.

I wonder how my future will be like. Hmm.. : )

Great! it's 2+ in the morning...

haha!! Yeah! I'll be heading to the library with my friends later as we're planning not to go to school because we want to self-study. Hope,I'm able to stay focus. : )

Good Morning readers!! Off to bed.. tata! : )

13th September 2010

2010-09-13T08:45:00.000-07:00

13th September 2010

2010-09-13T08:13:00.000-07:00

I've learnt to APPRECIATE it...

Hey there! I've been busy with Hari Raya and School stuff.... : )

I wasn't really in a mood to update my blog but I just feel like it...

So far,I've been so stressful thinking about my 'N' level October papers.

I'm totally not ready for it and yes I need more time please!! =.=

Life has been rather good but wasn't in a good term with this person.

Hey,I've apologised and the rest is all up to you because to me,you're still my friend yeah...

Well,I celebrated my first day of Eid at Melaka and Muar...

OMG!! It WAS FUN! Haha!! I like the atmosphere over there... : )

I had a great time with my cousins...

I hope,I'll go there again...

Just now,I was like a tour guide to my cousin from Melaka.. haha!! Show her around Jurong Point... : )

Anyway,now I'm not in a mood of being emotional...

I mean I shouldn't even behave in that way...

I want to keep moving forward...

The more I kept recalling those moments,the more painful my heart will be...

So,the moral of the story is that,I'm trying my best to forget every single little thing...

Alright,that's enough...

Today,in school, I wasn't in a mood to pay attention but instead I was in a mood to laugh...

October papers is coming and I'm still behaving this way?? Hahaha!! Nevermind,at least at home I've been revising.. Good enough.. : )

And yeah to Mr. Nas... haha!! Nice knowing you.. : )

4TH SEPTEMBER 2010

2010-09-03T23:01:00.000-07:00

My Everything - Lee Min Ho

Remember this? We used to love this show(Boys Over Flower). I miss those times but I know time won't be able to rewind the memories that we've been through together. : (

4TH SEPT 2010

2010-09-03T22:17:00.000-07:00

WHY DID YOU LEAVE? I HATE YOU!

I know that I was supposed to update in another 1 to 2 weeks time but it seems that I just want to let out my feelings... Yup,'N' level will be in two days time and I'm still sitting here browsing through those pictures... You know,I'm really moving on but something stops me from doing it. Gosh... Whatever it is,sooner or later it will completely fades away.
Btw,to that someone,I know your post on FB is about me... You don't have to wait for me because for now, my heart is closed for any guys... Perhaps,if you want to wait for me,it will be in a year time... : )
I appreciate every effort that you've made just to win my heart... Thanks yeah.. : )
To my so called ' BestFriend',Mr.N,You've changed.. Whatever,I'm not going to care...
I hope you'll realised it alright... : )

4mths has passed and I really mean what I said:
'No matter what happens,I'll stay strong. Because I know that I'm not alone. There's more I've to learn. I've just realised that why should I even think of you when you were making me as an option. Don't you realised that? You're my biggest mistake but still you're my favourite broken heart. If you're still wondering how I'm doing here,I'm doing great. I may be lieing but I just have to. : ). Since the day you broke my heart,I've been smiling even though it hurts me soo bad but now that smile isn't fake anymore because I'm used to it and it has becoming a real smile..'

At times,you know what?? I feel that you still exist in my life and the first thing I do whenever I wake up in the morning was to check my phone and hoping that you'll text or call me BUT I just remembered that I've deleted your number and I've promised to myself not to even look at your pictures on FB. Every now and then,my feelings will change. Sometimes,it comes and sometimes it go. I'm still unsure if I've really gotten over you. Time heals everything but When? Patience has its limit but I just can't tolerate with this feelings for the passed 4mths.
1year 7mths being with you and you expect me to completely forget about you?? How could you? I hate you! At last,I said I hate You! I've never hate you all these while.
I know she's hot,pretty,beautiful and every wonderful words are perfect to describe the way she looks.
I'm done! Whatever! Goodbye! I HATE YOU! : )

29th August 2010

2010-08-28T22:10:00.000-07:00

Erase You - Matt Cab

29th August 2010

2010-08-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

Learnt From your Mistakes...

Hush-Hush!! Yeah.. I know it has been a while that I didn't update... Hope you readers understand yeah... 8 more days to my major exam... 'N' level... My prelims results was dissapointing except for some... But English was terrible... I'm speechless... I've learnt from it and I don't want to repeat it during my major paper... If I were to repeat it again,I'm going to be in a big trouble... I want to go Sec 5 and I'll be satisfied... Even though,there's huge difference between Sec 4 and Sec 5,I'm still willing to catch up with everything in that short period of time but IF let say I was not meant to be in Sec 5 then I'll be in Higher-Nitec taking the course that I'm interested in and that is Business Studies(Sports Management)... I believe that I can still achieve my goal by taking the long route... Whatever it is,I'll pray hard to get into Sec 5...

Okay,so for this whole week,things was in a big mess... A lot of conflicts among my classmates and also conflict with my sister... I was too stressed up and Yes! I cried... hehs! But,don't worry I'm doing fine right now... I've talked things out with my sister and after reflecting on what she said,I realised my mistakes. By the way,I want to see my class reuniting again... I'm going to have a slow talk with them tomorrow and I hope things will get better. : )

So far,so good... I've never miss any of the days during fasting month ... Well,even though I was exhausted for this whole week due to the practice for prom video,at least I could still endure with it... Woohoo!! Dance! haha!! Okay,I know I can't dance but at least I'm doing this for the class... haha!! I can't imagine the situation during the prom night especially when every video of each class is being played... hahaha!! I can't wait for 8th October to come because I want to have the freedom and I want to be away temporarily from my school books .... As for now,let's just focus and put my 100% effort for my 'N' level... I know my family wants the best for me and I want to make them proud....

One more thing,this morning,I have no idea what has gone into me until I accidentally drop the plate and obviously it broke. Clumsy Syaza! I don't know why I'm worried about my mother. I dreamt about her crying and I don't even know why she cried and after that oh yes! I broke that plate when I suddenly thought of my mother. See... It's like something bad is going to happen but I'll pray to god that my mother will be fine... : )

Hari Raya? Well,it's great that the muslims will be celebrating Hari Raya in a few weeks but I'm just not in the mood because of my 'N' level... Luckily Hari Raya will be on the 10th of September and it didn't clash with my papers... That's all about it.. I've nothing much to type here... But let's share something interesting...

Hmmm.. what should I talk about? Love?

For the time being,I don't want to get distracted with this thing called 'falling in love'...

But I know everyone needs love... It's just not the right time for me...

I just need someone who can take good care of me,shower me with happiness,never cheat on me,never lie to me,honest,firm when making decisions and serious when it comes to relationship.. To be honest,I prefer older guys than me like 2 yrs difference of age.. They tend to be more matured and loving but not all... Only some...

Whatever it is,I just want to have fun in life and if my heart is willing to accept that someone then maybe I'll think twice or more before getting into a relationship... All this is because I've learnt to be more careful when it comes to Love... So that's all for now.. The next post will be in the next two to three weeks... tata!! Till then! : )

Great! Red light!! There it goes!! I want to fast lah!! haiyos!!!

20th August 2010

2010-08-20T00:33:00.000-07:00

Something bout love- David Archuleta

20th august 2010

2010-08-19T23:26:00.000-07:00

Looking forward to a Brighter side... : )
Hey there! At last my prelims has ended! Fuhh... 17 more days to 'N' level... All out Syaza! I believe that I can do it and I hope my prelims marks won't be really bad...
Okay,for the past few days,I've been messaging him through Facebook... I don't want to say out his name because I don't want people to misunderstand... I just want to make him realised that he had hurt me soo much.. That's all and nothing more... Everything's too late... He has someone new and I've thought about it for quite sometime.I don't want to disturb his life anymore... Let him be... I don't want to talk soo much.. Just wait when someone else does the same thing that you did to me and you'll know how terrible it feels...
So,let's talk about something else...

Walking Away...
As for now,I'm avoiding myself from being in love... Maybe only a Crush or whatever but not a Lover... I don't want to repeat the whole cycle again.. I know the consequences and I've learnt my lesson.... So now,I've decided to walk away from you and get my own life...
I know I'm strong enough to face with the reality...
So what if I'm not moving on? It doesn't bothers you anyway... It's my life and it's my choice... Good enough,I've forgiven you.. Don't expect me to forget everything about you in a short peiod of time because I'm a human beig with feelings,unlike YOU... Okay,enough of this.... Let's end it here... I don't want to keep on bragging about it...

It's my life. No one can take charge of it. : )
Basically,I'm happy to have a family that supports me in everything that I do since I was a little child.... I'm proud to have them by my side.. Be it,with my attitude that sucks to the maximum sometimes or when I did something really silly... No matter what,they are my life... Without them,I don't think I'll be who I am today... A 16yrs old teenager who enjoy her life even though there's a lot of challenges that she went through... That's me. Trust me,I'm proud that I'm an independent girl,sporty girl and there's a lot more about me... Thanks to my parents who have been the ones who scolded me when I did something wrong or even beat me up... I've learnt a lot throughout 16yrs of living...
There's more for me to catch up with and that's why I want to look on a brighter side instead of being stucked in the middle and not knowing what to do... Well,life has never been easy because there's a lot of problems coming... Problems with myself.. I need to reflect on it because I want to be someone who always thinks positive and look to a better future...
Whatever it is,let God be the one who decides what's good for me and what's bad for me...

15th august 2010

2010-08-15T02:24:00.000-07:00

Movin on by Toya...

Trust me,I won't love another like how used to love you boy... : ) : (

15th august 2010

2010-08-15T01:11:00.000-07:00

NO MOOD FOR LOVE.... : ) : ( :"(

I guess right now my feelings is all mixed up... I don't know why but maybe I can't help myself from thinking of you.. True enough that I said I'm trying my best to get over all of those memories but I can't... Perhaps,one day but not now...

I'm trying to move on but I guess I should try harder than this...

Until when should I be feeling this way?? 2 to 3yrs down the road?? God,help me to go through all these... Please...

Even though I'm doing great but deep down in my heart,there's still anger that is stucked in between and I end up throwing all of my tantrums to someone else..

I know it's easy for you to get over me because you got someone that is way prettier than me and better than me... Good for you then but why are you being so emo everytime when I looked at your profile?? What's that supposed to mean? So,you're suffering because of her?? Fine.. call me a stalker if you want to because I don't care at all.. All I care about is you... Really...

Even though you've hurt me like countless of times but for goodness sake,I still care soo much about you...

Tell me,how am I supposed to get over everything when all the pain,anger,sadness and fearness is still haunting me??

To be frank,I'm having phobia of falling in love again...

How I wished there's that special guy who can win my heart and make me become a brave person when it comes to love....

All these was because of you.. I blamed you for everything....

'N' level is just around the corner and I'm behaving this way...

Trust me,when it comes to studies,I'll be really focused but when I'm sitting alone and listening to music that makes me reminiscing those moments that I had with you,my mood will suddenly changed...

Just because of that,I don't feel like talking to anyone or even my family members....

Is this still not enough with what you've did to me??

It feels so terrible!

Though,it has been so long that I rolled my tears for you...

That's because,I want to regain my self-confidence and I don't want to be weak just because I'm a girl....

Now,I realised how much you really want her in your life and the way you treat her is way too nice.... Great for you...

Easy for you to find a replacement huh??

What kind of human being are you??

Hate? Love? Whatever!=.=

1) You were in love with me.

2)I accepted you for who you are.

3)I asked for a break up because I'm not ready.

4)We were soo close like more than just friends.

5)After 1yr plus,I got to know you lied to me.

6)We fought but four days later,I texted you and gave you the second chance.

7)I thought you're the one.

8)As months passed by,you've changed tremendously.

9)I'm hurt by you.. really...

10)We wanted to separate but we got back with each other again.

11)I really thought we were meant for each other.

12)We quarelled a lot.

13)I got to know you found someone new when we were still close.

14)I asked you to make your choice and you chose her.

15)I suffered a lot. I got bullied by your friends through the cyber world.

16)No apology from you still. I waited but there's no words that come out from

your mouth.

17)As months passed by,it's killing me in the inside.

18)I cried every single day.

19)2mths later,I hold onto these tears because I'm stronger than before.

20)Right now,I'm even stronger but it seems that our memories keep haunting me.

When will all these end??

When will I stop thinking of you??

You're gone! And I'm trying not to keep on holding back into the past....

As a human being,all I can do is to pray to God and hope that my life will be fine... : ) : (

I still remember the last moments that we spent time together...

You know,from the look in your eyes,I know you've been hiding something from me but I just refused to asked you...

I was reluctant to even let go of your hand but because you told me that you loved me,I let go and all I could do was to look at you from the back when you walked away....

Maybe that was really our last time to be together...

Hope,you're doing fine right now...

You know,sometimes I'm here for you but what's the used?? You already have someone who is way prettier and beautiful than me...

Whatever it is,good luck!

Thanks for hurting me soo bad.... =.=

13th august 2010

2010-08-12T21:19:00.000-07:00

Monica - What hurts the most w/lyrics

Even if it hurts,these words are meant for you: I still rememember you holding my hands and saying those three words...Trust me,even though you've long gone from my life,you're still my favourite broken heart...It may be only 1yr 7mths that we've been through but I've learnt something meaningful..Loving someone doen't mean you have to be with them because you know that deep in your heart,your love for that person still exist... : ) Thanks for everything.. True enough that I've suffered a lot but it taught me a lesson.. : )

13th August 2010

2010-08-12T20:27:00.000-07:00

~No One Else~ : )

Hey there! I'm sorry for not keeping my blog active... Who's going to read it anyway... haha! Hmm,I've been rather busy with prelims... Today,I've decided to rest myself for a day...I'm tired of memorising those notes for exam... Like seriously.. =.=

Yesterday:

Haha!! Yesterday was a really great day for me.. I was excited to cheer for my friends who was running with the torch for YOG!! woohhoooo!! haha!! I took pictures but this computer really sucks... I don't know when I'll be uploading it...

Even though I'm fasting,I still tried to endure with all those shoutings and cheerings... I was really fanatic! haha! Okay I know,it's irritating but how I wished I could be the one running with the torch... Nevermind.. At leat last year I got to go for the YOG friendship camp... : D

Today:

I had my Social Studies paper just now and it was manageable... So,I'm done with humanities because yesterday was geography paper... I'm also done with EL and Malay paper 1...Basically,I'm planning to rest today because I'm really tired of studying like mad people for this whole week.... Gosh! : P I know,It's for my own good though... : )

So,today= Wash Laundry,Sleep and Slack.. Maybe at night I'm going for Terawih with Fida... : ) I hope she'll get better soon...

My Life:

Lately,my life has been great...

Someone has been there for me...

Even though you're just a friend to me but trust me,you've always make me smile... : )

Thanks to Mr.H! : )

Because of him,I've realised that there's a lot for me to look forward to...

You may not be special to me but the way you treated me is one of a kind.. I don't know why because I don't bother to ask also... As long as I'm happy,It's good enough... : )

Also,thanks for supporting me in my studies and tryng to improve my english... haha! : )

At least I've realised that life goes on... What's the point of being sad and I end up getting caught in the middle like some useless human being... : )

Day by Day,I'll get over it, bit by bit...

Great isn't it...

Let's just stop talking about my life... I don't feel like elaborating it.. Hope you readers don't mind...

Fasting Month

So far,so good... Somehow,it's great that prilems are on the fasting month.. I can concentrate better and I can pray hard to pass with flying colours... During this month,I've been smiling and I'm not emo like how I used to be... haha!

Anyway,I hope I'm able to fast for 30days straight... I don't want that thing to stop me.. : 0... : )

7th August 2010

2010-08-07T02:07:00.000-07:00

Miley Cyrus Medley - Christina Grimmie (By Kurt Schneider)

7th August 2010

2010-08-07T01:30:00.000-07:00

It's like going for a WAR!!!('N' LEVEL) HAHA!!

Hey Readers! : ).. I know it has been a week that I have yet to update my blog...

I've been busy with my studies lately... Prelims will be in 4days time...

I'm prepared for everything except for my Chemistry and Maths..... I hope I'm able to get myself prepared for all of my subjects soon...

Let's talk about yesterday and today...

Wow! Yesterday,was fun! As per normal,I went to the gym with Fida & Su.. The best part was that before we headed to the gym,we did a little bit of warm up by playing chapteh and takraw(girls version) .. haha!! Su was quite good at it... Fine! I laughed a lot when I wanted to pass the the takraw ball to them... Funny movements of takraw... haha!! Basically,I know a little bit of takraw because last time there's this guy whom I used to love,told me about it... Thanks to him.. : )

Anyway,after gym,I went home and started complaining about my back pain.. It's killing me.. Seriously... I'm too young for that... I guess I'm going to get an osteoporosis when I get older... Choy!! haha!!

Today,I'm super tired.. I did a lot of houseworks and I have to take medications as my back pain is getting from bad to worst.. I have no choice but I guess I have to go to the doctor soon... =.=

This is going to be bad.... Haiz... Pity me...

: ( ... Nevermind,I'm still strong ... I can endure with it...

So later,I'm going to Pioneer Mall Mac to study and revised together with Fida...

: D.I hope I can concentrate instead of laughing like mad people when I'm there later....haha!!

8th October 2010!!

I'm wishing for this date to come faster and I'll be done with my 'N' level... Weee!! Yahoo!!

I want to party with my beloved friends and I can't wait for that..... Also,I want to learn how to strum my guitar.... : P

To Mr.H: When you're in overseas,I hope you'll takecare of yourself.... : ) Be good and listen to every instructions that is given... haha!! Okay,I know you're good... : )

I'm going to miss you as a friend.. Nothing more than that... : )

Sorry for not being able to accompany you and watch the movie... Like I said,I'll be busy revising for my Prelims... : ) Studies come first... But my top priority in life is Family...

To Mr A: Yeah,I know you'll be having such a great time with her today.. Enjoy yeah!Now,I realised that,good things always come after the bad.... Last long..! I've nothing much to say... To your gf,take good care of him... Btw,I'll always pray that you two will last long forever... : )

Hmm,My life has been GREAT! Nothing much to say...

Only Stress here! Stress there!! Stress with my studies!! haha!! It's okay... Only a few months left and I can party like crazy... Hope I can make it to Sec 5... AMIN! : )

30th July 2010

2010-07-29T18:56:00.000-07:00

No one but me- Taj Jackson

lyrics: http://www.elyricsworld.com/no_one_but_me_lyrics_taj_jackson.html

30th July 2010

2010-07-29T17:54:00.000-07:00

GIVING UP just means that you've QUIT!

Nowadays,my attitude really sucks... I just don't get it...

The feeling of giving up is just there.... I don't know why... This is so not like me...

I'm stronger than this... Gosh! Even my sister has been asking about my attitude...

She was dissapointed in me but listened up,I have my own reasons why I react that way...

I'm too stressed up....

Is it because of him?

Is it because of my studies?

Seriously,I just can't stand all these feelings...

Enough of the 'what if'(s) and why(s)....

I kept asking those question to myself but what's the used??

No matter what,its going to be a question mark to my qns....?????????

No answers.....

Argh!!! I just don't feel right....

What's wrong with me???

:'(

How I wish I can go far far away from here just to make myself feel calm and relax.

Prelims is just around the corner and I'm still behaving this way....

To (COWARD): It's because of YOU i'm trying my best to live my life again...

I hope one day, you'll feel the pain that I've went through for the pass 2mths+...

Thanks yeah... Even though my life seems to be happy but trust me,I won't forget the way you've treated me.... True enough,I'm OVER you but not those bad moments that I had with you...

What you've did to me in the past is still stucked vividly in my mind.....

I'll forgive you but I'll not forget...

Say whatever you want to say...

If you think that I'm still stucked in the past,yes! It's because of you COWARD!!

There's one thing I'm wishing for...

You want to know what is it??

I WISHed that I could punched your *fcuking face continuously...

Its killing me in the inside even though I'm looking fine on the outside....

You know what?

All I can do is to fake my smile whenever I'm with my friends because that's the only way for me to live my life again.... That's just how I live all these while, when you're gone with her...

Whatever! I don't need any *bullshit here....

Still,never once I said that I HATE YOU ... Hurt me more!! I'm used to it...

Afterall,guys are just guys.....

Self Motivation: Syaza! You have to believe in yourself... Whatever happened in the past will only make you become a stronger person... Don't bother about him,he's living a good life with her...

So? Why are you wasting your own sweet time thinking about him?
Focus on what you have to because no matter what,you have to make your family proud...

Ignore him,He won't come back and he's just not worth it...

Just pray and hope that he'll realised what he had did to you.... Come on!

Your future is bright... No giving up! Be strong! Learnt from your mistakes... Because it's never too late....

*It's just my way of reminding myself to keep moving forward....

Signing off,

Syaza

29 July 2010

2010-07-29T01:00:00.000-07:00

I'm Okay- Tiffany Evans

29 july 2010

2010-07-28T23:47:00.000-07:00

Let's Wait For Your Turn to get HURT! : )

How I wish my English can be superb.... Haiz... I'm sighing... : (

I'm dissapointed with myself... I thought my English has really improve but I couldn't believe that I failed my english paper 2 for my test... : (...

I'm doing good with the rest of the subject but why is it soo hard for me to improve my English??? Now then I realised that reading books are really important.. I should have started it since I was a little kid but maybe it just meant to be that way.. I hope I still have time to buck up on my English... Just now,in school I felt like crying after my EL teacher told me about my marks... I was speechless.. My friends are improving but how about me?? Is my best not good enough??

No matter what,I won't give up because I don't want to lose hope just because of one test.. This is my first time being so emotional over a test... I could feel the pressure as my prelims will be in 14days time.... Syaza,you can do it!! Have faith! : )... I'm trying my best to get over it... : )

LET'S DROP THE TOPIC...

Okay basically,I'm going to share about last weekend... Last saturday,I had my advanced birthday celebration with my family and with the presence of my parents,nephews and nieces, I feel soo complete! : ) Guess what?? My wish came true.. haha!! I got a camera!! : )

So,the next day, which is on my birthday,I went to Jurong Point with Fida,FykaCastro and Hairul to watch the 'Manja' open house... Thanks for the treat Hairul.. : ).. It was so sweet of my bestfriend,Fida, because when we finished eating our meal,she suddenly gave me this box and it was her present to me.. : )!! haha!! Not to forget,our faces was on the malay news.. hahaha!! Background passer-by... I was laughing like mad when people texted me and my sister called me telling me that my face was on tv.. hahaha!! : ) So ,I've appeared two times on tv.. The last time was like 10yrs ago... : ) Then on Monday(26th July 2010).. I had my belated birthday celebration in school with my friends... It was a suprised mini party because after school they brought me to the class and suddenly they started to sing a birthday song to me... I blushed... haha!! : ) Thanks people!! I love it!! The cupcakes was really nice... : ) *Unforgettable memories..

Maybe some of you are curious to know about my love life... haha!!

Basically,there's nothing much I can say...

I don't even have a lover...

To you,(Mr H): Sorry for ignoring you this few days... I don't feel like talking to any guys or even contact with any guys except for my close friends in school... I just don't trust any guys for now... Be it,if you're treating me nice or whatever,I'm not going to let anyone take my heart and play around with it... What's the used of being in love and end up getting hurt by some useless guy....??? I don't think that my tears are meant for guys that treated me like some trashed!! ha! Sweet talker?? I hate that... You can be sweet but you don't have to lie with your words....

That's just a coward... I know I'm getting mad... Maybe I just find that all guys are the same...Seriously,just go and *fcuk off from my life.... Sorry if I'm hurting you but just wait until my heart truly believes that you're the one.... But i guess,it's never gonna work... : )...

Whatever!! : )

I'm happy with my WONDERFUL life..!!

I'm just too stressed out with my English...That's all...!

To Mr A: Yes! you might be thinking that I'm suffering a lot but too bad.. I'm not... I'm just hurt by you but someday,just wait for your turn to get hurt by her.... *KARMA!

Signing off,

Syaza! : ) : P

Rossa - Hati Yang Kau Sakiti - Lyrics On Screen - High Quality

2010-07-23T05:20:00.000-07:00

Rossa- Hati Yang Kau Sakiti

23rd July 2010

2010-07-23T04:47:00.000-07:00

Your Smile makes me HAPPY!

Yo People!!

Let's talk about today...

Okay,so basically,today in school,the Japanese Students came to my school and my class get to host 10 of them... : )

It was a tiring day for me though... I'm not sure why... After school ends,Fida,Suliana and me decided to go to the gym and do our work outs.. I am really happy to see that my Bestfriends are looking forward to have a healthy lifestyle... : )

But when I was doing some work outs I feel extremely tired... Since yesterday,my body wasn't really in a good condition... A little bit weak... I guess I'm going to be better soon...

I should be excited right now but I don't seems to bother a lot about my birthday... 2 days from now... I don't know why... I mean I'm not even having problems but somehow that feeling just come... So yeah... I'm trying to fight with my weak body....

My studies?? I'm doing good with it except for my Geography.. Slacking... I'll be revising geography for this few days and work on my maths... I think my English is improving... Good news! : ) Alhamdulilah! : )... Day and night all I think is just my future.... I hope I'll have a great future ahead, so my family will have a better life... : )

It's great that god still loves me because whatever happened to me in the past,really made me realised that I'm now a stronger person than before.... : D.

I'm really grateful...!!

*I used to wake up in the morning and kept thinking of you but now I've already got over you but the memories will still remained,I guess... : )...

Whatever it is,Life Goes On.... : D..

Seeing you smile even if that smile wasn't meant for me,makes me the happiest person on earth....

At least someone can takecare of you when I'm not there... So yeah... : )

Thanks for making me happy even though you're not here with me... : )

Vince - Andai Kau Mengerti - CDVC

2010-07-16T01:22:00.000-07:00

16th July 2010

2010-07-16T00:30:00.000-07:00

Everything seems to be PERFECT....

EXCEPT for My Heart....

It's been quite some time that I did not update... As you know,'N' level is just around the corner and I'm always busy... I'm only 60% prepared.... I don't want to be too stress out...

This week was the BEST! The Sec 4s and 5s are to be in school by 8am and 8.30am on Thursday this was because of the lower sec have their E-learning .. So yeah,it's great to be waking up one hour later than usual school days that I've to wake up... : )

I've been thinking of something lately and I'm not sure about it... I mean my heart... It's really great that he's not always stucked in my mind and not even in my heart anymore as that was what I've been wanting for... Move on.. So yeah,I've move on but not by loving other guys... I'm moving on by myself because I've realised that only me can help myself to do that. It's true being with other guys can make me totally get over you but I've chose not to because I want to prove that I can do this all by myself. I'm a girl but so what?? I can't be WEAK right?? Being able to understand what love does and the meaning of it, is not so simple... There's a lot for me to learn but it's not the right time... All I care about is to have a bright future... : ). I'm sure I can do it! I've learnt to let go of someone even when he is precious to me ... But now? Not anymore...

There's someone better for me out there and I know that he will be my future love... : )

Currently,I'm just blogging and listening to songs...

I love how I live my Life now...

Every seconds of it,I will make sure that I won't waste my time on all the stupid little things...

Family is my priority in life and I will make them happy ONE day... : )

A song I wrote FOR YOU:

Now all I think is you

I thought you'd be here forever

Now all I see is you

But you're with her...

The moment,I stare at the corner

Waitin' for the summer

Hopin' that we could be together

But all those hope.... Is gone.....

I can't believe

You left me

I still remember,You and Me...

The way we used to be &

All those memories...

All these tears

I shed for you

I know it's meaningless

But all I wanted to say was I LOVE YOU...

I thought you're the one for me

I thought you were different

I thought I could be so happy

But now you're hurtin' me

So Baby...

Move on...

I guess...

You're happy...

I guess...

You're fine...

Cause let me tell you now...

Everything I do reminds me of YOU...

So yeah... That's all,I want to post...

Till then! : ) And yeah! 9 more days to Sweet 16th! : )

10th July 2010

2010-07-10T02:29:00.000-07:00

Jason Derulo - Ridin' Solo (Official Video in HD)

I'M RIDING SOLO!!

Ola PEOPLE!! I'm addicted to this song... Because it is related to my life,oh I mean my past... and so now I'm RIDING SOLO~~!! : )

NO LOVE= NO PROBLEMS=NO HEARTBREAKING= Enjoy LIFE to the FULLEST BABY!! yeah!! Okay,today I'm super hyper... And instead of preparing for my 'N' level oral which is on this coming Monday,I'm still sitting here and blogging.. Nevermind,I can also improve my english by blogging oftenly... So,as for today,I did nothing much.... Tutoring,Slacked and Facebooking + Blogging.. Like no life... Haha!! I wanted to follow my family to Malaysia but too bad I have to tutor someone....

By the Way,HONEYDEW MILK TEA IS SUPERB!! First time drinking it... : D. It seems that I've nothing much to say but maybe I can share with you readers what I would like to do after my 'N' level....

Things To do after 'N' level: SHOPPING!!, Learnt how to strum the guitar,More work out in the gym, Outings with beloved FRIENDS!!, Learnt how to put on make up, Go KARAOKE!!, CHALET, BBq with classmates and a lottttt More!!

Wooohoo!!! It's gonna be fun!! But whatever it is,lets complete my 'N' level first.... Oh yar,and I'm looking forward to the PROM NIGHT!! I'm going to transform myself into becoming a real woman only for that day itself ..haha!!... : D. I just can't imagined myself wearing a dress... I've never wear a dress before except when I was a little child... So yeah, a few more months into becoming and looking like a real woman... : P.. TATA!!

9th July 2010

2010-07-09T23:28:00.000-07:00

Justin Bieber - Somebody To Love (Remix) ft. Usher

Its ain't you,NO MORE!

Surprisingly! : D I've found out that this whole week you're not the first person that I think of anymore... Sometimes,I don't even think of you.. haha!! This is really great! I hope,I'll be able to remain this way... yeah!! Wow!! What a tiring week for me...

What I did during the weekdays:
-Go School
-Come Back Home
-Wash up
-Afternoon Nap
-Wake up and eat
-Leisure time(normally watch tv)
-7:30pm all the way until 10:00pm,study!!!!
-Read storybook to make me fall asleep
-Lights out! Done!!
Nice isn't it?? haha!! Nothing to think of and no problems to solve also... SEE! MY life is great! and yeah,but there's this guy whom I will always think of... He is my Bestfriend!! He's been there for me whenever I need someone to talk to.. But now,we're planning to concentrate on our studies and therefore we don't contact as much as we used to...I'll MISS YOU A LOT!
I've to focus on my 'N' level and he needs to focus on his 'O' level.. So,maybe end of year,I'm planning to go out with him more often... : ) hehe!! We've known each other since primary school but we got closer when we were in Sec 3... : P
Okay,let's talk about some other things...

Hmm.. My 'N' level oral will be on this coming monday.. Great! I'm not prepared for my picture discussion... Nevermind,I'll just keep on practicing.. : )
I don't know why this whole week all I think about is to sleep... Haha!! But it's part of my hobby.. Gosh! I can't keep on behaving this way,I've to exercise more if not I'll get fatter! hehs! : P
*Lazy Pig.. haha!!

By the way,the picture above is in Hawaii... How I wish I can go there??!! I love the scenery!! hehe!! But since I was a little kid,I've been wanting to go to Australia... : )
Woohoo!! It'll be great if my wish come true one day.. I'll bring along my family especially my parents... : D...
There's a lot of things that I'm looking forward to...
Basically,I'll make my life as interesting as possible...BeCause....
I want to live my LIFE to the fullest! hehe!
Okay then,I got to go... : )

5th July 2010

2010-07-04T20:22:00.000-07:00

GREAT!! NOW WHAT??!! My files in my Hp memory card are gone.... FCuk!!

I'm getting frustrated and I'm trying to stay calm but I just can't.... The PHOTOS.. THE RECORDINGS OF YOUR VOICE.... VIDEOS OF YOU.... ARGH!!! Seriously!!! Fine!! I admit that I'm still keeping all that as our memories... Maybe it's true what my sister said... There must be a reason why it happened and I guess God wants me to move on... EEE!! fine!! let's drop the topic....

So,later I'll be going to Changi Airport with Nafisah and Mazri... Hope it will be very peaceful as we're planning to study over there... : ) I really had a great time with my Bestfriends and Cousin yesterday.... We went to watch ECLIPSE... It was not really awesome as I prefer New Moon as compared to Eclipse.... Yeah! And yes! I laughed a lot while watching the movie... It was because of my bestfriends,they crapped a lot including me.... HAHA!! fine.... Basically,I have nothing to talk about due to my blank mind... The cause of it was because of my Fcuking memory card!!! okay! fine! bye!

4th July 2010

2010-07-03T17:35:00.000-07:00

Brian McKnight - Back At One

Please Be HAPPY... : )

Haiz... Why am I feeling this way? Nowadays.I don't feel good and I just feel so restless... I woke up at 6:57am.. And it was a sudden rise and shine... The first thing that came into my mind was YOU... What's that supposed to mean?? Fine... to be honest... Almost everyday I think of you. You're always the first person that I will think of each and every single day... And every single day,I just want to know what's happening around you... I don't know why but my heart feels like it... It's okay,maybe a few months from now,you'll not be the first person that I think of everyday... By the way,I know that you're not in a good condition with your gf and I'm getting worried.. WTH is wrong with me??!! Gosh! Syaza,come on! Move on and don't ever get stucked in the past...! Yeah.. It's easier to be said than done... I'll just pray that you'll last long with her.... I want you to be happy... Argh!! It's ridiculous... Why am I being so caring... I don't love you,no more... but my heart beats fast whenever I found out something is not right with your life..... You know,sometimes... I just think that I'm being such a fool... You know why?? Because,I just don't know why... Until today,I just don't understand,why did you leave me in the first place?? Yeah,I guess your love for me was fading away at that moment.. Whatever it is!!

See,I don't get it... I have a life but why must I still care about your life.... I thought when you got back with her,you'll be the most happiest person on earth?? But what's happening... Is KARMA on its way...??? It's not for me to judge but it really happens.. What goes around,Comes around... Though,whatever you're going through right now,it's not the worst thing as compared to what you did to me... Sometimes,my tears just rolled down without any reason... I believe that I can live my life without you by my side.. But why must such thing happened?? I know god is fair enough....

Thinking back, I guess I've been suffering a lot and I had enough of all this... Maybe it's true what people said: the people who hurt you the most,will be the one that you can't forget easily... So,I'll remember all these forever... No matter what,I don't even wish for you to come back into my life .... You're just a different person now... Whoever you're with now,be it in the future or until you get married... I just want to say that, PLEASE BE HAPPY! PLEASE!

So,today let me have fun with my Bestfriends without even thinking of you... Let me be myself... Let me learnt a lesson and not repeat it again... Enough of everything... Please god,lead me to the correct path... All I want to say is that,You're the best that I've ever had... : ) : ( : ,(

3rd July 2010*

2010-07-03T02:41:00.000-07:00

Just let go- an original song by Thaqif

3rd July 2010

2010-07-03T02:11:00.000-07:00

You Said Bye! I said No! You said,Baby,let Me go!

Hmm,right now,I'm doing nothing as I just want to have some free time.. In the morning,I did my laundry followed by tutoring and lastly,I cleaned up the house... I'm tired and I just can't forget about yesterday matched between Brazil and Netherlands.. Like WTH?! fine! I'm freaking out okay... Let's not talk about it...

Anyway,yesterday I was fcuking frustrated.. I don't even know why... It's like everything I did wasn't right... Maybe,I didn't had enough sleep and I didn't eat well too... So,that's me.. When things like that happened,trust me.. I wouldn't want to talk to anyone.. haha! But today,I'm happy,only that my mind is distracted by something... Sometimes,things that I didn't want to recall back always bothers me... Gosh! haha! Oh My Gosh! Love that song.. okay fine,being random here...Basically,I can't wait for tomorrow to come!! Woohhoo!! I want to go out with my beloved Bestfriends!!! WEEE!!! Tonight,I'm gonna do my homework and revised a little bit of Biology.. I guess... : ).

Well,It's going to be 2mths since the day you left... I have nothing much to say also... As I know that you're already busy with your own life... She'd better take good care of you even though you've hurt me soo bad but still I'll always pray for your happiness... Whatever it is,I don't want to get myself stucked in the past... Anyway,if we were meant to be then we are but if not then just let it be... As long as you're happy.. I'll be happier than you... : )
It's kind of weird that I'm typing all this out because I don't think that you're going to read this also right?? Yeah.. Nevermind,at least I'm letting out my feelings rather than keeping it all alone... : )... Always smile even if she hurts you soo bad... Treat her like your princess yeah.. : )
Goodbye! : D

2nd July 2010

2010-07-02T23:59:00.000-07:00

Ceritaku by Revalina

Ku Cuba Tanpamu disisi,Ku Cuba Tanpa Hidup Denganmu...

Well, I just came back from school and yeah the youth day celebration was quite fun... Maybe a little bit boring because my discipline master,didn't get dunk.. haha!! Anyway,it was amazing that my school managed to raise fund with an amount of $4680 by just selling those food and the games that was being set up... haha! I just bought an ice-cream, dedicate two songs to my beloved form teacher and pay for the dunking machine just to get my dicipline master dunk.. Too bad,he didn't.. haha! I don't know why but I'm kind of lazy to play those games just now...

So,just now, I had my Maths test.. It was quite manageable except for the last two questions.. A bit confusing... Wow! It was lucky that my prelim didn't clashed with my birthday... 23 more days to my special day... haha! Actually,I don't really care about it.... : D .. Hmm.. I just found myself losing 2kg and I don't know why my shoulders are becoming broader,hate that man... And yeah my legs are getting darker... I want to have a nice leg.. How I wish! Nevermind,at least I have a pair of legs.. Must be thankful.. : )

I'm thinking of what to wear on Sunday..: ).. I just want to have fun.. So tensed up when what I do is just Study! hehe! yeah,for my own good also... Okay,I'm stucked right now.. I don't know what to say.. My life has been an awesome one...!! : P I'm now concentrating only on my 'N' level and nothing else... I must make my family proud! : )

Bye2!

Travie McCoy: Billionaire ft. Bruno Mars [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

2010-07-02T01:20:00.000-07:00

1st July 2010

2010-07-01T00:36:00.000-07:00

Don't Love You No More-by Craig David

What Now? You're gone, My fault,I'm sorry...

Hello People!! Hahaha!! This picture above is during the Track & Field bbq... Nothing better to do... So, currently listening to the song by Craig David... It's a nice and meaningful song for me... Anyway,sorry for not updating so often as I've been busy lately... When school reopened,things that I will do is just Study! Study! And Study! It may be very boring but it's okay.. I'm only left with a few more months and I can enjoy like mad people.. haha!!

On Sunday,I'm going to go to HDB Toa Payoh Hub with my BESTFRIENDS..! As there will be a lot of Bazaars over there...!! : ) wee... And maybe Monday,I'll be going to Changi Airport with Mazri and I'm not too sure about the rest.... Going there to study.. Peace environment... haha! I want to go watch Eclipse!! I can't wait!!

I've been laughing a lot lately as I've promised to myself that no one and nothing can bring me down... So what if people call me crazy?? At least I have fun right.. haha! I don't want to be too stressed.. Okay,tomorrow I'll have my Maths test.. Die! I want to do well for that.. I hope I can!! : ) My English 'N' level oral is just around the corner and I'm going to prepare myself by practicing a lot of reading and talking but the picture part???!! argh!! Nevermind,practice makes perfect... haha!! Till then people... : )

26th June 2010

2010-06-25T10:48:00.000-07:00

The day you went away-M2M

CALL ME CRAZY,CALL ME BLIND...

To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time...

It is 2am and I'm still not sleeping because of my essays.. 7 is done! woohoo! Actually I left with another 3 essays but should I really do.. I guess so... Anyway,it is kind of suckish when I see people who are in a relationship just after they broke up with the previous one. Like wth?? Whatever it is,hope they will last long... Maybe they want to move on with life but is that the way to get over someone that they loved and cherished before??? Woah! A lot of questions is running through my mind...

P.S... I went for a jog just now .. fine... yesterday.. haha!! I don't know why but I'm kind of like emo today... So,to avoid from it,I did a lot of reading and played some crossword puzzle just to distract myself. I hope Nizam Nozuka is feeling better now.. Because when I texted him just now,he kind of like scolded me because he was angry at that point of time... hehe! Luckily,you apologised ah.... Well,a few more days,school will be resuming and I'm so not ready but I'll forced myself to be ready... : )..

All day thinking about you was the stupidiest thing that I had ever did... What did I gained from it?? Pain? Tears? hah! whatever! Only pain but no tears... Faster! I want you to get out of my mind A.S.A.P... There's better things and people around me ... Love? so not in a mood for that... Not now but later.... Perhaps another 2 to 3 years ... : )... Gosh.. getting sleepy here... Goodnight! or good morning! haha! bye!

: P

25th june 2010

2010-06-25T00:50:00.000-07:00

And then you came in my darkest moment,
When the sun was the lowest.... : )

So,yesterday bbq was okay.. Not really fun... haha!
hmm.. got home at 11+pm..
Today for the first time on my holidays,i woke up at 11:30am...
WOW! great sleep.. haha! Woke up,bathe and started my laundry and also my essays..
So now,5 essays is done... I'm aiming to do at least 7.
I thought need to do only 1 and I got to know must do 10 essays.. WTH? haha!
Basically,maybe I'm going for a jog later on... I want to stay fit.. Okay better go eat my lunch... : P Bye2!

Before Dawn by August:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWcQG65Hoxk

24th June 2010

2010-06-23T22:59:00.000-07:00

She was mine-Aj Rafael feat Jesse Barrera : )

Enjoy! : )

ABCD IS LOVED!!

Yeah!! I just came back from swimming with A,C,D .. Had a GREAT time with them...

We really talked a lot... haha!! And yeah I won the swimming race although I can't swim well like them.. haha!! Anyway,just now I tried using Fida's Iphone but I guess I look kind of retarded when I typed out .. haha!! I know! Played 'Truth' during swimming and a lot of 'love life' we talked about.. : P .. Just now,when I was crossing the traffic light,I saw a guy and his face looks exactly like that 'COWARD'...! Gosh! I don't dare to look at his face also... I don't want to recall about the past... Let me have a life! : D... So,right now.. I'm doing nothing. I just did some housework..

I'm going to have a good nap later on because I'll be going for BBQ and I'll be home late at night....

TATA! TILL THEN! : )

*It's fading away.. : )

23rd June 2010

2010-06-22T22:57:00.000-07:00

*WHEN WE SAY-AJ Rafael

23rd june 2010

2010-06-22T22:08:00.000-07:00

Sometimes love comes around...
And it knocks you down...
Just get back up...
When it knocks you down...

So,currently just updating my blog and listening to 'KNOCK YOU DOWN'.... : )
Hmm... Okay.. What should I talk about??
My future career?? haha!! Ya.. basically,I want to be a Personal Trainer or Outward Bounding Instuctor or Nutritionist... Nevermind.. let me get through my 'n' level and god willing get through my 'o' level also.. haha!! I'm just an ambitious person... Maybe that is the best way for me to achieve something in life... To have a goal in life.. : )
Focus on my studies first... : )
Though,sometimes you'll feel lonely without love from that special someone but I guess all that can come later in life...
As for now,my Family and friends will always be there for me... : )
Okay so.. when school reopens I'm going to focus in class and start pushing myself....

RE: the post on that guy,just ignore it... cause he's already living a happy life.. so i don't care that much.. : D..

I just can't wait for 'n' level to end... I'm going to celebrate man!!! haha!! Okay,i'm being so random... goodbye!! : P

22nd June 2010

2010-06-22T05:24:00.000-07:00

Hey hey! I can't wait for ABCD swimming outing! Haha!
Even though i don't know how to swim but i know they'll be there to teach me.. So,on Thursday after swimming,i have bbq to attend.. For Track&Field members,hope it will be fun! : D

Today was a moody day for me,stomach cramp.. Gosh! Haha! Anyway i'm feelin better right now.. Till then! Just a short post..
: D

*imissyou. : (

Francisco - Simple Words

2010-06-19T22:19:00.000-07:00

20june 2010

2010-06-19T20:53:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid to fall in love again...

Let God decides what is best for me and my future...

I don't want to ruin my precious life just for a guy that is not worth it...

Afterall,he'll realised what he had did to me one day...

Let time heals everything even if it takes forever...

I want to enjoy my life to the fullest...

Being with my family and friends...

I love them!

I want to achieve my goals in life...

Never let anyone destroy what I've been dreaming for...

Those memories that I had with you before may be the precious thing and the worst thing I've went through... I had enough of people taking advantage of me...

Let me be happy please...

I don't want to break down and cry like I did before...

I don't want to be the girl that a guy can play around with my feelings...

I don't want to be weak just because you're the one who made me down...

I want to be that strong girl and go through all of the obstacles in life ahead...

I've been holding back these tears even though I'm terribly hurt because I don't want to waste my breath crying just for you...

I had enough of those empty promises...

Now,as time passes by,I've been having an awesome life...

If you think that I'm hurt by you... Yes you're true... BUT you know what?? You've only made me grew stronger...

If you're happy,thats good for you...

Please appreciate her and always love her no matter what...

But someday,you'll hurt her like what you did to me...

Last long with her ....

All the best...

You're just not my TRUE love...

In a few months time,I'll get over you... : )

But that is just my prediction...

Whatever you're going through with her,was the same thing that we've went through before...

If you asked me whether I miss you? The answer is yes...

If you asked me whether I need you? The answer is no...

If you asked me whether my heart is still for you? The answer is no because you're the one who left me and hurt me so bad...

And lastly if you asked me whether I LOVE YOU? IT WILL BE A TOTALLY NO! you ain't the one that I ever wanted,you're no one to me... And yes,you're nothing to me as for now and i guess forever....

I thought having you was what I've been wanting for but no because loving you was a big mistake...

Let me do what I have to achieve...

I want to be that extraordinary girl cause I want to prove you that I'm not a simple girl who could accept what you've did to me...

This heart will just remain and stay here with me...

Only god knows,who deserve my love....

I don't have to thank you for everything because like I said.. You're no one to me ... : )

I will always pray the best for you even though you've hurt me soo bad...

I guess things happened for a reason...

After that hurting and crying,I've realised that it is the best solution for you to leave me...

I appreciate that...

You've made me realised that life have to move on...

So,here I am sitting and typing what my feeling is like....

You may think that I must be so emo right?

No,i'm not now...

I'm a girl who will stay strong...

But what hurt the most was that there was no last words from you...

Its okay.... Cause this will be my last words to you..

I hope you'll read this but if you don't then its okay because god is fair... : )

You have your life and I have mine...

Goodbye...

For the last time,let me put a picture of us...

If you don't like it then it's your problem because sooner or later,i'll delete it ....

Go be happy... Enjoy your life because I'll enjoy mine.. : )

A song for you:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p_Zm5mIQ4pk

8 JUNE 2010

2010-06-08T21:50:00.000-07:00

As for today...
I went to school and reached home at 11+..
Yesterday,Nizam Nozuka asked me if I could go to the library.. So,decided to go as I can't study at home... Too much of facebooking already.. haha!!
So,basically,studied for two hrs and Nizam started to feel hungry and I can't even concentrate as my brain don't seems to be working anymore.. haha!
Maths questions is killing me....
But I have no choice but to keep on praticing...
'N' level prelim will be in a month plus and i'm like only 52% prepared...
I don't know when i'll get it started... seriously...
Anyway,we decided to go banquet and eat.. So,we were like chatting about his life and so on....
After that,he treated me Strawberry milkshake cuz he owe me one... haha! : D
Thanks for your treat Nizam... : )
Walk around and we don't even know where we wanted to go and I started to feel dizzy...
So,decided to go home.. Took bus with him and went home.... : )
Not much I can talked about...
Anyway,my life is full of happiness with my beloved friends by my side! : D
I'm happy to have them in my life..
Not to forget my family...
This coming saturday,I'll be in Malaysia for One week...
Going to stay at my parents house over there...
I will be missing all of my friends. : (

29th May 2010

2010-05-28T23:49:00.000-07:00

Hey..
It has been a long time that I have yet to update...
A lot of things happened to me recently...
Conflicts... Misunderstanding....
Wow! What a life man... Anyway,thanks to both of my sisters for helping me out to settle my problem... Hmm.. and yeah... Thanks to my new friend.. Zulfadhli.. hehe!! He has been the one who will listen to me when i needed someone to talk to.. Thank you soooo much...
I'm happy with my life right now... 'N' level prelim will be like in one month plus...
Yes.. Must start to focus already.. : ) : D

7th May 2010

2010-05-07T00:14:00.000-07:00

So... Right now? I'm doing nothing... Just did some housework... Alright.. 'N' Level will be like in another 4mths... Time flies really fast.... Focus! Focus! Focus!

No love,no pain...

I don't want to think about all those stuff as for now...

I want to be a happy girl... : D hehe!!

Thanks for being by my side... (Nafisah and Amirul ).... : )

6TH mAY 2010

2010-05-05T22:21:00.001-07:00

Blurp2!!! I'm in school right now... I'm halfway done with my F&n coursework and i don't know what to do..
Life has to move on even though you didn't give me you're freaking answer....
Anyway,guys are guys...
I will want to enjoy my life to the fullest no matter what happens...
I don't want to bring my mood down and react differently to the surroundings....
I want to be me... The Syaza that i''m known as... haha!!!
Alright then,i need to read books even though to me reading sucks but still it will keep me away from all those thinkings... I'll make myself busy just to make my life meaningful with the people around me...
Anyway,they just told us about the Prom theme(MONOCHROMO) for our school.. haha!! Wearing a dress?? Not my type... But I have to.. haha!!

6th May 2010

2010-05-05T21:48:00.000-07:00

Things are gettting more complicated now....

Things that you don't expect to happen,had happened...

And things that I really want to treasure will never happened if it really ends...

I can't even expressed my feelings because it really hurts me badly...

I swear when all this happened,i didn't even cry... Seriously,make your decision..

I don't mind... Leave me? Okay,i'll accept... : D.. No point crying over a guy like you because its not worth it at all...

My famiy and friends are here for me and they'll support me in everything that I do...

I'm not gonna treat you like I used to... : D

This will not stop me from achieving my goal in my life...

Syaza is a strong girl... : D

Memories?? I'll try to delete it... Lets treat you like some trash... haha!!!!!!

23 April 2010

2010-04-23T17:39:00.000-07:00

Look at the picture above.... haha!!! Anyway,its been quite sometime that i didn't bother to update my blog.... Reason: Lazy and Busy....

Actually,i've nothing to talk about.... Like seriously....

My life? Okay not perfect... My studies? I think improving except for my English...

Love life? Nil... My families? PERFECT! My Friends? Seems to be alright.. hehe!!!

gosh.... I'm superb bored.....

28 march 2010

2010-03-27T20:17:00.000-07:00

Look at the picture up there.... A little girl sitting beside her mum spending time together... I miss those times... Ever Since my mum,bought a house in malaysia in 2008,she rarely come back home... I don't mind because i understand that that was her wish... Haiz.. but mum, have some pity on me... Look at my friends... Their mum will always cook for them, call them when they seems to be worried about them... But i wonder,why is it that my sister is the one who does that.... Maybe,because you put all of your responsibility on her... Mum.. i'm just a 16years old teenager who still needs the love and care from a mother.. I miss those times when you asked me to buy the ingredients for you to cook my favourite dish,i miss those times when you asked me to massage you... I miss your scoldings... I miss your naggings... I miss everything about you mum... Its been 1mth plus you're in malaysia.... Its true,i can call you and talk to you,but i just prefer talking to you face to face...... Hope,you'll feel what i'm feeling all this while... I've never had the chance to let out this feelings to anyone before... But mum,trust me,I feel safer when you're here with me..... I feel very complete when you're here with me.... Maybe,you thought that i am happier when you're not around but mum you're wrong.. Behind those smiles and laughter.. I'm worried about you when you're in Malaysia.... How I wish i can own a car now so that I can always pay you a visit.... Mum,I love you....

3rd March 2010!!

2010-03-03T04:42:00.000-08:00

WEIRD!!

Weird enough that for this whole week i'm busy and we don't contact that much... Still,its weird that I DON'T MISS YOU... Seriously,why is that so?? Anyway,I got to know AZF already and its nice making friends with him... Haha!! He's cool..
To Penguin,I still do not have the answers for me feeling this way...
Its like you are just my close guy friend to me..
: )... I found out something and didn't bothers me that much.... I'm sorry Penguin but i'm just happy with my life right now.. : ) Gonna text AZF later... Don't want to disturb him... Busy doing his homework.. SSShhhh...

Also not to forget to my dearest Bestfriend... SITI NAFISAH!!! Happy Sweet 16th !!!! : ) Love u beb!!!Hope you enjoy your day!! : D Its me and Nafisah the shorty in the picture above ....^

22nd February 2010

2010-02-22T00:33:00.000-08:00

Hello People!!! HAHAHA!! Just wanna say Thanks to Naf & Fida for helping me out on my blog.. haha!!! I'm such a loser... Don't even know how to change my blogskin ... Fine... I admit lah kae.. loser.. haha!!

Okay,so right now i'm in the school library with Fida,Su,Naf and Azyan....
By the way,i'm admiring someone lah... AZF!! How i wish i can get to know him.... Too bad!! I guess he's attached or something.. Nevermind lets just keep it to myself... Haha!! Sorry penguin..

Anyway,i failed my maths test and it was the first time that i failed for this year... It was lucky that,that test marks won't appear in the progress report.. haha!! Syaza!! Buck up!! hehe!!

Me and penguin are getting along nowadays and thats great... Lets just ignore about that 'duck' lah kae... You should know who because you're the one who called her that.. haha!! I should call you a flirtish but no more flirtish Penguin and i trust you a lot orite.. : D

31st December 2009

2009-12-31T00:37:00.000-08:00

Right now,i'm starting to get bored... haiz... how i wish my sister could have let me go for the Countdown .... Maybe next year... yeah.... JUST WANNA WISH SULIANA HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY!!!Enjoy your day beb!! : D....

My mind is thinking of you right now,a lot of questions i will want to ask you but i don't want to because i'll know i'll be freaking jealous... My jealousy is like SUPER and i dun even know why must it be that way.... I guess, you readers dun get what i'm trying to say right.. haha!!! I,myself dun even know what i'm talking about.. haha!!

Can't wait for Friday,Saturday and Sunday.. looking forward to that KOREAN drama

'Three Brothers'... Channel 173.. at 6.50pm

21st December 2009

2009-12-20T19:18:00.000-08:00

I came back from Desaru last Friday,but today then i'm updating my blog.. It was fun and enjoyable... I really try out new things like playing the pool,go-cart... haha!! Ostrich Farm was interesting,i ate the Ostrich egg... damn nice... haha!!! Okay,so lets change the topic,hmmm... Btw,theres this gurl from Damai Sec IS DAMN IRRITATING PLUS ANNOYING... Something happened,i was trying to be nice to her and she's like .... forget it!! pissed off... Hmm,so tomorrow planning to go JP with him.. Long time never meet him because he was like 3 weeks away in Malaysia... Miss him ... : ) : (... Hope he can make it for tomorrow... I'm looking forward to meet you ..... hehe!! He's coming back today.. Yiippee!!!

*One more month to your Sweet 16th... hehe!!! : D.. I'm not sure what should i get for you...

2009-12-14T18:36:00.000-08:00

Wohooo!! Sorry for being late for updating my post on my YOG camp... I'm lazy to type it... Tiring leh!! haha!! First of all,i just want to say that it is a SUPER DUPER FUN AND ENJOYABLE Camp!! I'm just going to tell what i did when i'm there....

1)Opening Ceremony(I really party and dance) hahaha!!
2)Silat(Chose silat as my first choice and i get it)
3)Outward Bound Singapore(managed to get to the top for the two high elements that i climbed)Went there by ferry...
4)Went to Marina Barrage,Little India &Kampong Glam(Its cool to know more about the Indians),make scrapbook for our partners....
5)Dragon Boat(My first choice was Fencing but i got Dragon Boat which was my last choice.. But
its fun and GEREK!! hahaha!!! Went to Yishun Park and lastly,it was the memorable Closing Ceremony... I really cried because through that 5 days of camp,i really learnt how to respect other culture and learnt that all of us are not perfect... I learnt what Friendship really means eventhough in the first place we were strangers but at the end of the day,we're really FRIENDS and we meet at one point.... In this camp... We're supposed to learnt what Friendship.Respect &Excellence means.... I really learnt that... I MISS my group... 1,2,3!!!3,2,1!!! CHAMPION!CHAMPION! NUMBER ONE!!! haha!!! thats my group name...I love them lots.... And one of my friends that come from Zimbabwe,guess whats her name... Happy!! Her name was damn cool and she told me that her brother name is Well Done.... I really laughed non-stop but at the end of the day,i realised that i should respect her.... yeah.... This camp will be kept in my mind Forever.... yeah.... I miss the happy and sad moments with you people... and I was lucky to have this laughing buddy.. ahahaha!! She's Amirah.... Woohhooo!! We're really crazy people...!! And i learnt what Teamwork is all about... Without teamwork,nothing is gonna work...

Tomorrow I'm off to Desaru... I'm gonna miss my friends and Aslam too... haha!! But he's in Malaysia too right now..... haha!! My sister saw the henna that i wrote on my arm 'ASLAM'... She really thought Aslam is my boyfriend.... haha!! Close friends hor... Don't get it wrong.. ya... he's my boy friend.... haha!! I'll be missing you guys .... : ) : (

10 NOV 2009

2009-11-10T03:13:00.000-08:00

Hahaha!! Today had a great day.. Firstly i just want to wish Ms Nasuha my Co-Form teacher a HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND ALSO TO MY BELOVED DAD.... HAHA!!! thanx Ms Nasuha as you accompanied me to the clinic for the health screening as i'm going for the friendship camp on the 8-12 December and it will be held in SSS.... hehe!! Hope to see NM... hahaks!! Okay,so after i went to the clinic,headed to JP to meet my A.B.C.D bestfriends... We need to buy something...SECRET!! hehe!! We really crab a lot and i was like seriously very rude because i was like teasing people... hahaha!! Look at myself first lah..... huahua!!! Laugh a lot with them and we talked about something personal.... We're back again and hope everything will be okay... hehe!!! It was a co-incidence that all of us were wearing black except Fida gray and black... hahaha!!! *C ah u... jkjk!!! but thats wat we called her... haha!! and they called me *B.... Nafisah*A and Suliana *D... hahaha!!! If you want to know more ,can ask any one of us... huahua!! You'll laugh like hell when you know what it means.. haha!!!..... I'm not sure why today i'm damn excited even though things aren't going smoothly between me and him but i hope this will settle soon.... Alright till here... Can't wait for Thursday!!! wooohhoooo!!!

RE: my previous post (*I will try my best to make myself stop loving you as that is what you really want me to do)... : )

29th May 2009

2009-05-29T03:39:00.000-07:00

I'll improve my marks for End year exam!!

*Smilesmile*.... People... It's a great day for me,knowing that i got 2nd in my class and was quite surprising but i wasn't sastified with my maths because normally i got at least a B4,but i dropped to c5 ... i got 58 which is like nearly to B4... Its still okay lah kan, because i can try harder for my end year...

My english teacher was so worried about my english because it seems like all of my other subjects was okay but my english???i did badly even though i passed.... Surprisingly,she told me that next term she's going to do some coaching for people like me and i was interested to go for that because i don't want because of my english,it'll pulled me down to the bottom.... Ooooo Gosh!!! Seriously,need a lot of hardwork!!! Syaza Nasrin,must buck up!!!! haha!!

Today,i got home,was at least hoping that my bro-in law was home because my parents are in malaysia and my sis was at work and i was hoping that someone will have a look at my report book and unfortunately,no one was home and was so sad because it's like i'm so excited to show my results and no one was at home wishing me congrats even though my sis wished me through the phone. bOREDbORED!! So,i decided to cheer myself up by calling Aslam and yar.....

This is for you:

Congrats bby upon getting 1st in class and 1st in level position out of the 100 you got 1st,i'm really happy for you even though i always say 'menyampah' because i'm jealous lah okae.. hahaha...!! But i think you deserve it lah,I can't believe that you got that much because i'm not sure also why but seriously bby,i'm GLAD of you.... : ) : )!!!!! (his from Bedok View Sec)

Hehehe!! So,readers i bet in life theres UPs and DOWNs.... But watever you do in life,don't give up easily.. believe in yourself and you sure can do it.... 'Impossible Is Nothing'....

You just need to concentrate in anything that you do.... : ) : )

Friday: 8 may 2009

2009-05-08T04:41:00.000-07:00

I was not in a mud lah todae.. but luckily,aftewr talking on the phone with Aslam,my tension was gone... I was so tense with my geography paper that i did juz now,seriously,i bet iwill lost that precious 16marks... I really hope,i can passed my paper.... If my mid-year is bad then,my end year,i'll do better... OMG!! i'm gonna buck up man!!!!! wateva, okae i don't know why,Aslam was mad at me.. but he's different,if he's mad,he will act as if everything's fine till i asked hym,weird ryte.... hahaha!! okay,that's a short post for today,and i'm off... bye2!!!

Sunday: 3rd may 2009

2009-05-03T02:37:00.001-07:00

me..jogging....

ouh..that double chocolate frappe

fida!!

before!!

after!!!

candid!! candid!! candid!!

Me and that clumsybitch..fida!!

Hehehehe!! Today i was like spending half of my day with my dearest Bestfren... Fida!!! Firstly,in the morning at 9:30am we went off to gym and yar there was so much commotions in the gym...

Then,Fida was very paiseh with tis man.. hahaha!! ask her ah .... After that,we planned to study together at Pioneer Mall MaC... At there,we kept on laughing cuz there were different people with different funny stuff... hahhaa!!! Laugh..laugh..laugh.. dhen,we got back wif our crious mood and started to opened up our books.... At the start we can't concentrate but we really did after a few mins.... At around 3pm,we decided to have a try on the new frappe at Mc'Cafe which is the double chocolate...look at the picture above.. it was damn nice.... but criously tat was the large size...Fida's thought it was medium.. then i asked fida,'imagine ah,how the small size is gonna look like'..haha!! but too bad no small size..... But quiet worth it lah....

Fida wanted to eat the oreo cake but i asked her to watched her diet..... Don't eat when its juz ur wants not ur needs..... We took some pictures also..... So,tonight,i'm gonna revised my geography+social studies....... At least geog is better than ss... SS sux man.... Now,i'm here getting tired and i'm gonna end my post here readers.... Tomorrow need to go school some more.. haiyo...

and..to ASLAM: Wish u all the best for ur paper tomorrow.... Study hard... :) :) Love u!

saturday: 2nd may 2009

2009-05-02T01:19:00.000-07:00

My name

Okae....today,i was peace off with the guy called 'Aslam', he was making me damn angry or trying to make me jealous.... Dhen,he was trying to make me forgive him but till now i didn't forgive him.. but somehow,i will also forgive him...and... blahblahblah..hahaha!!! crazy lah!!!

today was bored....but luckily i was entertained by my second sis and mum cuz they keep making me laugh.. cuz my mum talks about her wedding last time....it was damn funny..hahahhaa!!!

My first sis,dunnoe wat mood,go malacca wif her family today and she's coming back tomorrow....one day only..i mean like less than one day...haha!! nvm... maybe she wants to enjoy...

And u noe wat?? Fida!! jgn tgk facebook aku lah!!!! hahaha!! Right now,she wants to search for my facebook..and that was like 2 yrs ago okay!!! my face sux man.... Now,oso sux lah..but better than last time wat....haha!! kae..wateva...end my post here...

bye2..readers!!!!

2009-05-01T02:31:00.000-07:00

damn cute.... extraodinary... chey!!!

boredom!!!

Ola peeps!! Okay,today was extremely busy until i forget to contact my dearest Aslam.... So sorry.... but criously,the first thing that i do after i woke up was obviously brushed my teeth and i started to do my laundry... After that,found that my room was a bit too dusty,so i decided to do my vacuum and wipe my window... haha!! As if,Hari Raya is coming like that.. haha!! after tat theres more.... sweep the house,vacuum the house,mop the house and get my laundry dry... After that,get my uniform iron cuz tomorrow gonna start revising my social studies and geography....

and yar.. MUM'S B'DAE IS COMING!!! My sis and i not sure wat to give her....??...

Hahahaha!! today,i bathe at 4:30pm... OMG!! one day,one time bathe.. haha!! i mean for today only lah... not everyday lah.... hahaha!! kae,so juz now.. while waiting for my comp to load,i took some pics.. criously,i'm bored... i'm not sure ..where's my Aslam also?? call him.never get.... hoping he'll call me later.... missing him leh..haha!! today oni la miss hym.. CHEY!! kidding la....

k lor,my fingers are getting tired... let's end my post here... bye2!! readers!!:)not to forget...i'll post my niece picture too... hehehe!!

okay..i was bored....

2009-04-24T04:38:00.001-07:00

I was acting like watever... haha... no comment.....

Hahaha!! My hello kitty pyjamas......

FRIDAY: 24th APRIL 2009

2009-04-23T23:08:00.000-07:00

Okay readers.... So this whole week was busy week,because too many things to share also.. and i'm lazy to type... hahaha!! hmm.. So,today i had my malay papers. Its manageable,at least i fill in all the blanks... haha!! Ya,but this year,i did opened my dictionary which is 'Kamus Dewan' aand put in those words in my compo.... Last year,my compo sux.... And seriously, i did my compo and i cried.... Very sad story for me lah... haha!! mcm phm....
Okay,then just now after my exam,Fida,Naf and me went to the hawker centre go and eat cheese fries cuz Fida's was craving for it but actually i wanted to eat at 'MR Teh Tarik' takpe lah for my fren sake.... hehehe!!! So,while eating we chit-chat... i offered Naf for my fries but she said... I WANT TO'....' !! haha!! Naf....makan jer lah..nk malu-malu...
After that go seven-eleven,went home... and in the bus me and Fida were laughing like crazy because of the people in the bus... hahahhahahaaha!!! Alight from the bus ,saw Fida's mum and she was asked to follow to Jurong Point and she can't make a decision,end up.. She followed her mum and sis.... Bye2!!!! hahahaha!! After this post,i'll be washing my clothes and rest for the whole day cuz i'm too tired and tomorrow gonna start revising my maths.. like hell man!! My maths got sec 2 topic and i was like ...wat the hell!! i forgot almost everything eh..... But still need to study.. too bad....
Okay readers, my next post i'm not sure when ...maybe in May...cuz i'll be busy with my studies and my sleeping too..hahaha!! kay dhen,till here... :))

MY LOVE

2009-04-18T07:24:00.000-07:00

Baby,u have alwayz been there for me when i'm needing you...
You really brighten up my life....
You have made me move on when i'm stuck in the middle...
You give me the comfort when i'm down...
You really tell me the meaning of LIFE...
I love you no matter what it takes... and i know...that i'm ur first love....

SYAZA IS IN LOVE WITH YOU.......