'11th december 2010

Okay,I know that my blog is really dead and I'm sorry about it.

It is due to the break down of my computer and laptop charger. Right now,I'm using my 2nd sis computer. wow! at least,I can update something here.

Life have been filled with dramas. People keep finding trouble and I'm getting pissed off so easily nowadays. I'm not sure why but I guess too many problems for me to handle with.

I know this is life and nothing comes easily,not even happiness.

I've been acting very weird towards some people and I just don't know why. People changed,so do I.

I'm hating guys. I mean most but not for some.

Sorry,but I think my heart isn't ready for love. When people talk about love,I'll tend to avoid it and act like love doesnt exist. Thanks to the jerks in my past aite.

As for now,I'll just put all that aside and enjoy my life with my friends.

I don't need anymore heartbreaks.

I'm loving my life even when I'm going through all those shits.

I just got to accept it and go with the flow.

Whatever it is,I'm never going to give up.

'N'level results will be out 6 more day s and hopefully I'll get through this. : )

Yesterday,was a great day day as I had my malay class bbq but we invited some outsiders. So yeah,there was drama going on when I reached home and this jerk started to post something about the BBQ. Fuck off kay! Kau tak sentuh itu pit,kau duduk diam-diam dekat tepi pun cantik.

Okay,chow people! gtg! : )

22th November 2010

LET'S PARTY! : D

Wow! Problems here and there. I was lucky that He settled everything with me. Such a relieved and I feel much better as compared to yesterday. So,it's the beginning of the week and I shall start it with a lot of excitement.

WTH! I was halfway updating my blog and there's this particular girl send me fb message and trying to find trouble. What's up with you? Asal kau terase siol?

I was correcting his mistakes. Whatever.. I won't entertain people like you. Such a waste of time. Okay back to my story,hmm.. today was kind bored but I managed to spent my time by sleeping almost the whole day plus doing laundries. haha! 

I don't know what else to type here because I'm in a party mood and how I wish I can go clubbing. But,too bad,I don't think my family would agree with that. Nvermind,maybe when I'm 21,I'll do such things. : ) Okay peeps! Chow! I can't stand it when she wanted to argued with me but end up talking to herself. I can be a bitch if you want to. : P

Superman - Joe Brooks (w/ lyrics)

Maher Zain - The Chosen One | ماهر زين - المختار

20th NOVEMBER 2010

So much for calling yourself my Friend.

You see,I don't mind if you're ignoring me for a valid reason. But hell yeah! You're still contacting with her?? What's up with you boy?? What has gone into your mind??

You left me aside and you're happily entertaining her.

Just STFU! Don't call yourself my bestfriend when you're just using me and ignoring me for some stupid reasons. Fuck off!

I know I should be the one texting you in the first place but well,I'm busy too??! How nice can my reasons be??! ASS! 

It's up to you and It's your choice who you want to be with or what you want to do.

Seriously,there's no harm if you ignore her text and calls what?! Why?! You're still in love with her? Oh okay,Whatever it is, please mean what you say before saying stuff like,'No,I don't love her anymore.' It's pathetic and I swear that your words are lies.

You know,these days,I've been wanting to share my problems to someone but I just don't know who. i know I have a bestfriend(Fida) but at times,not everything I can share to her. 

And to you boy,Where were you when I needed you the most?! 

Bullshit! This is why I hate guys!

If you're sincere to be my friend or whatever shit,you don't have to ignore me just for the sake of HER! 

I'm pissed off!

I guess,I've not been praying for quite sometime and I just can't find myself at ease.

Starting from today,I'm going to change. Change in my attitude.

Btw,to that someone,I know you have a boyfriend but you know,I wanted to talk to you about my problems but it seems that you're ignoring me too.

You're never sincere to be my friend and I'm sorry. I've deleted your number and I guess that's the best for me to stop with my nonsense with you. 

See,FRIENDS? what's that supposed to mean? 

They only come to you when they need someone to talk to and they'll leave you once they found happiness. I don't care! I'm going to ignore everything and just be myself.

I won't let your words bring me down and I'll stay strong like I've always did.

I'll try to be at the peak of the mountain where everything seems fine and you won't be able to know what's happening down there. 

At times,I feel like migrating. I want to be far away from everyone except for my beloved people. If all these happened for a reason,then I'll accept it and walk away like as if it was never a problem to me. 

You know how painful it is,for me to know that you're ignoring me and you know how much I wanted you to be by my side so badly.

But well,I didn't cry and this just means that it's too painful that I can't let this tears out.

Whatever! This is my world and I know Allah is there for me.

I don't need you people to treat me like shit. Thanks! Chow! 

19th November 2010

PROM NIGHT BABY!!!

So,yesterday was AWESOME! <3.>

More pictures on facebook has been uploaded.

Well,all thanks to my 2nd sis for transforming me into a lady. : ).

haha! But I still love the nerdy side of me. That's just me,NERDY! : D.

Who cares if you people want to criticise me?? It's not like you people are PERFECT or something... Oh,PLEASE... Dream on...

Btw,I'm going to start bitching about you and him.

Eh,listen here ah. I'm not accusing him okay. I'm stating the facts! And to you bitch,you better back off because you have got nothing to do in this matter even if you're his GF! I didn't even blame you,so yeah,fuck off! 

Okay back to yesterday,me and my dearest bestfriend were late for Prom and I guess we were the last to reach there. : P. Anyway,thanks for the compliments people. I mean my fb friends. : D.

Oh,not to forget,I've managed not to look at his profile for three fcuking days! woohoo! Life's great people! Okay! Chow! : D

17th November 2010

I'll not be the girl who will easily fall in love with Bastards! 

I'll not let guys take advantage of me!

I'll not be nice to them if their hobby is hurting people's heart!

I'll not entertain any bullshit!

I'll not view his BORING profile!

I'll hate guys who come and go easily!

If you want a good-looking girl,ladylight,sexy and whatever shit,You can fcuk off from my life because I'm just me! I'm sporty,not pretty at all but at least I don't play around with people's heart.

I'll make sure that the next guy who enters my life be the last one.I'll make sure that you're really sincere towards me and you respect me. If not,I'll kick your ass ! Got that! 

Like I told you people,I've changed! 

And to my FUTURE LOVE:

'Please do not hurt me like those bastards did to me.I had enough of heartbreaks and I swear I'll love you with all my heart. I'll treasure you and I'll not take you for granted.' 

I LOVE You MY FUTURE LOVER!! : )